..be transformed by the renewing of your mind

Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)

This blog will be shifted to www.sharvovsky.wordpress.com

(I wonder whether if some ppl with double personalities will have two very different blogs… like e.g. One would be so gothic and wanna hate everyone, and the other blog would be so light-hearted and cheerful kind. Don’t think it existed except in people with such mental disorders. You can be assured I’m not one of them. Just wanna shift the blog to somewhere due to some reasons.)

I gotta sleep on my assignments.

3rd day in Jurong.

Cool weather, lots of Malaysians, a bit far from friends and sleeping with my sis is okay so far.. kicked her a bit and she hit me a bit.. hehe. At least I’m not frightened by her “caterpillar” face. hehehe. It’s a rather musical family I’m staying with, they sing, they play guitar … and they make powerpoint slides for songs… i’m plugged in to 92.4 fm to concentrate for assignments.. Looked at the bus’ sign on the way home — “Jurong East’– felt very wrong. ( It’s like in divorce, the kids affected always have a hope in them that their parents will be reconciled, and I still have a hope in me that I’ll be returning back to Serangoon… BUT THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN.)

Lots of people meeting up around me.. things happening to people and their families.. but I’m still stuck with my assignments…….. Few more days it’ll be over.

Motivational verses: I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength; The joy of the Lord is my strength; Ask and it shall be given to you……..

In my stomach: Green tea + Redbull+ Beehoon+ Jia jia herbal tea. Feeling “cooled” (Chinese herbal way) and energized.

It’s 1.22 am and I still can’t sleep… . . . . .    .     .          .

It is not usual of me to worry about things. I was a bit concerned about moving in with the other family that we are gonna live with, like where I can hang my clothes and must behave myself at all times. Maybe a bit awkward in the beginning, but should be fine as they are rather kind people.

Somethings will still kept in the old house for four months.

Supposed to go for the Canberra YCC meeting with my society VP re: this Sat Zouk’s Party for a cause for the society. But I told her if someone is accompanying her than I wouldn’t go as I need to do my assignments. She told me it’s okay and to do my assignments. (touched)hehe. Didn’t really want to publicise the event to my friends as I don’t really wanna encourage my friends to go clubbing, but who ever is there will just do a good cause, should be good enough. Don’t know if I’ll be going this Sat as sec to support the event as my family is also moving out on that same day to the west, yeah baby. Jurong west.

Was thinking whether after moving there, I would see the regular folks around this area lesser..

Until I moved over there, in August, I will try to gain back my driving skills for driving around.

Meeting Stephanie tmr morning at mrt way early as she offers to pray for the coming JCI (intensive audit) at work this week.

No need to worry too much, just a day at a time.

Anticipating August to come…. where I would be able to do more of the things that I would normally do.

After moving in, I intend to buy more alarm clocks as I need to wake up earlier than usual. Everytime I wanted to go Kovan to buy, but when I’m there, I just have no time to buy….

Otherwise… Hope that it will be a smooth transition.

My room is now full of boxes, and I pack them myself. Quite heavy and must be careful not to sprain back… I think I’m like the fittest in the house as my parents are old and my sis is away in Malaysia for her ODAC camp for NIE. So yeah.. I need to train up some muscles. HAHA enuff of the crap.

My sis is one of the very few people that I really trusted.

Finally confided to her about the serious problem that I’m going through.

Prayed together.

Haven’t let her see me cry in a long while.

Although she is younger than me, but she is certainly more spiritually matured than me as she was a Christian way before I was one.

Somethings cannot be judged by the outer appearance… not just physical appearance, but also situations as well..

Sometimes it is a bit scary when she looks straight at me in the eye and put me back on what is true and right. It is as if she has seen my soul.

Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding.

Ask for strength and it will be given to you.

(Entire Self-talk)

Outsmarting God will never work.

When God says, “Don’t.”, but you think, “I can try, it won’t be that bad.” Perhaps I’ve thought that I can work my way around it to make it work. That is equal to trying to outsmart God isn’t it? 

You can never be smarter than God. Face it. Not even close. Just like an ant trying to think like a human, or that is an underestimation, God is more, even more than that…

In the end, you are the one who suffers.

The Hand that stopped you is a wing of refuge.

Once out of the protection that you sees as restriction, you will have to pay for the consequences on your own.

Now you have to decide upon whether to surrender and swallow your pride and try to see His point.

I will now stop the devil from laughing at me first. The accusations and fiery arrows piercing towards me can only be extinguished with the shield of faith. 

To stop the monster from growing, I need to bring it into the light of truth and kill it with my personal choice. Daily, as monsters do replicate. It is a monster. Do not deny….. and you will not struggle anymore…